Monday, March 14, 2011

Life Decisions

1st: Watch Iron Jawed Angels.

I'm not one to get emotional over a film, but I definitely shed a tear, felt my gut clench, and noticed my heart speeding up as I followed the ups and downs of this film. The fight for women's suffrage was one in which many women made great sacrifices and it makes me feel even more strongly about my involvement in politics and women's issues. We can't stop fighting or we'll start to see our rights taken from us.

After watching that, seeing the sacrifices and difficult decisions these women made so selflessly, it sounds pretty whiny of me to talk about the decisions I deem tough in my everyday life. Right now, I have to make certain decisions about my commitments and my priorities and it is hard. I love my new job and I love the promise it brings. It has made me happy like almost nothing else has in the past couple years. It is part of my promise to myself that I will develop my career and be independent and self sufficient, so how can I still wonder what the right decision might be when it comes to making sacrifices. Something has to be given up. What they say about not being able to have your cake and eat it, too (eat your cake and have it, too) is coming into play in my life.

What do I give up and who is hurt by it? I've eased away from disclosing much that is really personal in this blog, some feigned attempt at privacy while still allowing myself a platform from which to wave my not-quite-dirty-but-worn-laundry. I'm afraid that the decision I must make right now involves hurting someone's feelings or making compromises in my career. Is there a middle ground?

Tune in next time, kids, for word on the decisions I make and the damages dealt.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

An Open Letter to (a) Driver(s)

Re: Your interactions with Pedestrians

Dear Driver(s),

Today, I, a pedestrian (most pedestrian), can only apologize for not giving a curtsy when I paused to allow you to continue driving while I waited graciously on the sidewalk. I have acknowledged your blatant superiority, as evidenced by your car ownership, likely with heated seats toasting your buttocks pleasantly as you listen to the radio station of your choosing or, perhaps, a compact disc from your favorite musician, and stopped to watch in awe as you, high wage earner with important things to do and important places to be, drove through the harsh winter conditions which undoubtedly burden you with unnecessary stress over lengthened stopping distance and lessened control. I hope you didn't assume, and I am sure you did not, that I was pausing and looking both ways to assess the safety of the well marked crossing I had approached, I was merely glancing in other directions to see if any other pedestrians were sharing this moment with me, gazing upon your steel encased glory from the outside, glad that the brisk winter air keeps us alert that we might never miss an opportunity to appreciate your very presence in the world. In fact, it was almost selfish of me to stop, knowing that I might take some sliver of credit for the world altering innovation you would surely be developing in the fifteen to thirty seconds I shaved from your undoubtedly oppressively long commute. Thankfully, the chill wind that whistles through the streets and beats through the fibers of my winter coat humbles me as it reminds me that nature, like you, like your massive motor vehicle, is powerful. As you certainly deduced, using your refined reasoning skills and your ability to make inferences using logic, time equaling money and I apparently lacking the money to own a motor vehicle of my own, my time is worth far less than your time and we both made the only logical decision in prioritizing you and your time over that of a lowly pedestrian. And, so I don't take up more of your time with this overly verbose message, meant to, in all sincerity, thank you, I will close with a most clear and concise message: Thank you, driver(s), for being (a) monumental and unmatched in all the world douchebag(s).

Monday, March 7, 2011

A more current update

The last time I wrote, Juneau had provided a little something: a job, temporary in nature but with potential. Whether it was timing or lack of funding or some other issue, the potential was not realized and I was again in a panic over whether I could pull things together. I had applied for some other jobs, but I had grown pretty despondent, with every job boasting ridiculous competition. I applied for jobs for which I was a shoe in, but it wasn't until I applied at an actual shoe store (my favorite) that I had any luck at all. Politics was a miss, an organization I had worked for before was a no go, things were looking woefully bad. But then I got hired to be a sales gal at the shoe store and things were looking up. At the same time I had an interview and later a second interview at an organization that provides educational resources. I knew who my competition was in this case and I was pretty convinced that the competition was too steep. But somehow I got the job (maybe that dabbling in graphic design was worth something after all). So I am now gainfully employed doing things I enjoy. I have joined the ranks of some of the other bloggers I read and am now working in the marketing/pr/communications field!

I think I had felt like I was going to be stuck in admin forever, babysitting print jobs, sending mailings, taking notes at meetings, running errands and filing. Thank goodness for this, it is a major boost of confidence and it is perfect for me. I will get to WRITE and I will get to create and sure I may also have to keep an eye on some print jobs and do some other things that are less than thrilling but I also get to do things, real things, and have a little ownership. The woman I work with directly is fantastic, a sassy New Yorker originally and she is very straight forward in a good way. The rest of the organization is full of really nice people. Also, the organization is essentially run by women; the executive director, CFO, program officers, almost everyone in an upper level position is a woman. Not that I am a weirdo man-hater, but it is refreshing. It's also notable that the organization is successful - it is expanding and growing and improving! I've seen other non-profit organizations struggle, while this one excels. It is also notable that people stay in the organization, they are happy there and there is room for growth and for people to take on projects and do great things.

If you can't tell, I'm really excited.

I'm also excited that I get a discount on shoes since I have already spent more money than I will admit publicly on shoes from this shop.

I'm also excited to be going on vacation shortly. I'll be seeing some old friends from some different times in my life, all in Los Angeles.